lonely as hell

bhayya left today morning...again
and i am once more left to myself...alone,helpless and lost
i tried not to be sad about him going to hongkong
but i guess i am selfish and i would rather have him here
and tell him what happened in college...how my jury was
and all other things which he would listen to while solving
that god-forsaken sudoku.
i thought about all the amazing time we spent together
driving thru the city listening to our favourite gazhals...
i thought about all the scrabble games which he won by cheating
all the fist-fights i beat him at and all the time we wasted in arguing about
the most mundane things.
but nothing that i think or do can help me get over the fact that
we'll never share the same home again ...
we'll be in different countries, different time-zones
living our separate lives.
and what makes everything worse is that
his last words to me before leaving were
" hey rich...dont worry i'll send u a new ipod, till then u keep this one"
had i been more awake
i would have hit him and told him its not the ipod idiot its u
what a brute...he thinks all i care about is that stupid ipod.

ya he is being very practical n all but y doesnt he get it
talking on the phone is not the same as going to him
and crying mY heart out.

i mean we wont be able to go to a movie and feel out of place
coz everybody else is laughing at something which is not funny
or freaking out on a joke which nobody else got...

and ya today was my first raceday without u and guess what
raikonnen won.

shit yaar it sucks without u.