lonely as hell

bhayya left today morning...again
and i am once more left to myself...alone,helpless and lost
i tried not to be sad about him going to hongkong
but i guess i am selfish and i would rather have him here
and tell him what happened in college...how my jury was
and all other things which he would listen to while solving
that god-forsaken sudoku.
i thought about all the amazing time we spent together
driving thru the city listening to our favourite gazhals...
i thought about all the scrabble games which he won by cheating
all the fist-fights i beat him at and all the time we wasted in arguing about
the most mundane things.
but nothing that i think or do can help me get over the fact that
we'll never share the same home again ...
we'll be in different countries, different time-zones
living our separate lives.
and what makes everything worse is that
his last words to me before leaving were
" hey rich...dont worry i'll send u a new ipod, till then u keep this one"
had i been more awake
i would have hit him and told him its not the ipod idiot its u
what a brute...he thinks all i care about is that stupid ipod.

ya he is being very practical n all but y doesnt he get it
talking on the phone is not the same as going to him
and crying mY heart out.

i mean we wont be able to go to a movie and feel out of place
coz everybody else is laughing at something which is not funny
or freaking out on a joke which nobody else got...

and ya today was my first raceday without u and guess what
raikonnen won.

shit yaar it sucks without u.

life as we know it

well i was thinking for quite some time what to write
there were things which came to my mind now and
then but didnt get the time to put them up... well ...

the thing which has been bothering me for sometime is that why we hate somebody
i mean what is about that other person that makes one go mad...see red ( i know it doesnt rhyme)
well my theory is that u hate those ppl the most who are extremely like you
because in them u can clearly see everything that u hate about urself but ur mirror doesnt show.
they drive u mad because they are all ur faults personified...

i dont know about anyone else but it holds true for me in most cases (i.e. most ppl i hate, will put up the names next time)

hmm in the end i would like to quote a murphy's law,
EVERYONE DESERVES EVERYBODY ELSE



p.s. agastya's photos are there on my flickr id ppl
juss go here...http://www.flickr.com/photos/13746988@N00/
if the link doesnt work go to richa... on the sidebar

blog layout

by the way i chose this layout called 'scribe' coz
i thought it was the most pretentious of the lot.

foreword

well....
just starting off on a rainy sleepy afternoon , coz have nothing else to do.
i thought i should write a blog many moons ago but was very lazy about it,
but now that my mind has become slow (just like this comp of mine) due to the
extraordinory amount of data it has to process and store so i thought that i might as well
use an external hard drive and relieve my brain of some of its burden.
blah blah blah
byebye